Ponder in Faith

Quick intro!

Hi! My name is Beckie. Thanks for taking a few minutes to read this entry.

I decided to start this blog because I have questions.

 (I bet you do too)

I enjoy learning about the word of God and I figured why not create a community where we can ask questions and seek answers together.

Who am I?

I was born into a believing family, as far as I know many generations of believers. I was taken to Church every Sunday, and we were there practically ALL day!

Can anyone else relate? (If not it’s ok, come along for the ride)

My salvation story.

At the age of five I remember getting so mad at my mom and grandmother I felt like my head was going to explode! Trust me when I say I was scared, big emotions are a lot for a five year old! I ran into my room and threw myself onto my bed. I remembered that my Sunday School teacher told us that when we accepted Jesus as our Savior, He would help us with life. Big problems and little ones…this was a BIG problem!

Like I said earlier, I ran to my room I was hot and started to cry, anger is a hard emotion for adults it’s even harder for kids. I thought, ok Jesus this is something I need help with, I didn’t want to feel this uncontrolled feeling anymore. So I asked Jesus to come in and take control of my life.

YES! At age five!

YES! I remember, like it was yesterday.

Did I stop getting angry?

Nope.

But I knew that Jesus could help with my anger, IF I let Him. I knew I could trust Him to help me through those moments.

Three years later I wanted to be baptized. Let me preface this next part with the fact we went to a HUGE church, at least 8 year old me thought it was huge. I told my mom that I wanted to take the next step. She told me baptism was an outward action to show my inward decision. Translation: if I wanted to do this I had to walk down and tell the Pastor…by MYSELF! She wanted eight year old me to walk down the isle of that big church and tell the Pastor!

ALONE?! With no one with me. But as I look back Jesus was there the entire time, He walked with me down that isle, and in front of all those grown-ups. So, on Easter Sunday I walked down and told the Pastor I was ready to be baptized. More on that one later.

Fast forward 20 years. My walk with Christ wasn’t what it should be, in fact I walked away from Church all together. I found myself working at a childcare center. God was there. He led me to that very place so I could meet someone who would shine a light on my path. Carol was absolutely sent by God. She and I would talk about our faith and why we stepped away. She started going to a Church near our work, one of the first MEGA Churches. She invited me to go with her on Wednesday nights. It took two years before I finally went with her. At age 30 I started going back to church. Wednesday nights with Carol and Sundays with my parents.

Change was needed in my life, God saw to it that change happened.

It took 26 years from that moment to get me here today! I experienced a few big life changes in that time but God brought me here.

The purpose of this blog is to get you, and me, to think and seek.

To ask questions I wished I was brave enough to ask when I was younger. For us to learn together and build a community. To pray together and for each other.

To seek God earnestly.

I often think about what my life would be if I didn’t answer God’s call to return to Him. Honestly I don’t think I would be here. If I had allowed satan to derail me and keep me from going to Church with Carol…I don’t want to go down that road.

Do you ever hear God calling you but you turn away?

I’m here to ask you to stop and listen to what God is calling you to do.

Jesus is always ready to welcome you into the family of God.

I’m here to pray for you and to help you seek out answers, through the Bible, to questions you may have. We can learn and grow together.

In 2024 I want to build a stronger relationship with God, will you join me?

At the end of each blog I want to add a prayer, one that I said at the end of each writing. One you can say, if you want, to help move you closer to God.

Father God, thank you for loving me enough to send Your Son Jesus to die for my sins. Thank you for directing my steps and leading me here. Help me to learn with an open heart. Help me to see what You are showing me. Help me to sit and listen to what You want to tell me. Bless this journey I am on. AMEN